8th September 2008

It is nearly midnight and I am now sitting in front of closed shops, on the railing, smoking, it was after months that I had smoked 7 cigarettes in a row. And my tongue is scalded, not from the coffee that I had drunk earlier but from the cigarettes. I had sat here for almost one and a half hours, reflecting on how my life has become as the shops closed around me and the darkness increased, I realised I was bored because I am lonely, it’s been one and a half weeks now, I am here in Pune and I haven’t made any friends, there aren’t any my type in my class nor in my flat. I wonder is it really important to have someone or I can survive alone? But being alone.....it isn’t making me sad nor...Happy...I am just kind of numb to it, maybe because I am used to it.

4th September 2008

Today is my first day in Pune as a resident here. Doesn’t feel any different except that this day was one of the most exhausting day of my life...and most importantly.....the decision i made today will affect my one year of life here....that is find the right accommodation. To put it right at the beginning i am not happy with this. This was the first apartment we came to actually a hostel...and what i didn’t liked was that our room was in the hallway...everyone who lived inside has to pass through it..Kind of like we are the gatekeepers.....but then all the houses we saw weren’t any good in quality except that i loved the privacy factor in them. But what i like about this chosen one is the facilities....we’ll def not have any water, elec, or any food problem. The mess is incredible here, providing almost everything, from maggi my favorite to rice. I have always wondered or rather dreaded that if i went out of Ranchi....i wouldn’t be able to eat maggi n of cors other stuff but maggi u need to cook on ur own. But yeah it seems big cities do have everything. Well after a really long day of room hunting...i longed to get back somewhere and to have a nice bath. Well next day is our admission.....i could help but wonder had i been alone i’d have got a better room.:( but still living with someone familiar might turn out to be good than living with a stranger. What had bugged me all day was i hadn’t taken bath n i was running around all of Pune carrying filth of two days of journey of bus & train respectively. But here i am sitting typing a diary which i would have done had i had my net connection but yeah that is another thing i want desperately with a capital D.